Interesting day. I had a good morning and great lunch with a friend. After lunch I desperately needed a nap and started feeling very upset and frustrated. The nap helped a little but with all the changes going on right now I’m very sensitive and became very upset tonight. I feel like my 2 year old nephew getting frustrated so easily and don’t know what to do with myself!
It doesn’t help that I feel pretty alone in all this. It’s great to have support, but I wish I actually had someone who was doing this along with me.
I am normally a huge stress eater, but tonight I didn’t eat anything at all. I think when I get very upset, heart breaking upset, I actually lose my appetite completely. So I guess something good came out of it. hehehe
I went to the store to return a movie and the small bag of plantain chips didn’t even tempt me. Hope that is a good thing. It also helped to get my emotions out and to talk with someone about it. I really tire of people telling me how I should feel and what I should do.
I just want the freedom to feel what how I feel and not be judged for it. And right now I feel annoyed and upset and am glad that there are people that just let me vent that without trying to fix me! I can be fixed when I’m in a saner state of mind, but for right now, I don’t want to be fixed…not sure why everyone doesn’t understand this! hahaha
So, yes, week 4 and I’m having a bit of a melt down. The Health Guy will tell you that everyone goes through it. But still wishing there was someone out there that I could have a melt down with. Any volunteers?
